Decision Making

There is a part time job available(1 day) at GEnting posted by my jx2 fren, Zyn in frenster the other day.. As soon as read about it, i am interested.. the reasons are:- 1. the wage is RM 250 per day working from 8pm to 1 am accomodation provided. 2. after the job, i may have more opportunities to involve in freelancer jobs. 3. i can earn extra income before i engage in a full time working life.
therfore, i immediately asked my beloved housemate, Xinli to join me..and she agreed :-) Then i called the agent.

Agent: would u mind come for an interview on this monday?
iLuF : Sure!
Agent: Please come with full make-up and black top, ok?
iLuF : emm.....okay!~

However, i am suddenly in hesitation when xinli rushed back to her hometown due to some reasons. I need to reconsider whether or not to go alone for this job. Go alone to Genting for the job and overnight there? i got no any experience in a job like this... should i go? does the benefits that i would gain exceeds the risk that i am goin to undertake..? Decision making in real life is really hard..What should i do?

生活

考試終于結束了。該開心嗎？該慶祝嗎？
怎麽此時此刻我還是如此猶豫。
怎麽壓力和擔憂還是緊緊抓著我 不肯放開
我好擔心 甚至睡覺也會夢見
擔心我會不及格 夢見我無法和其他同學一起畢業
說真的 我相信我可以 就算這一次失敗了 下一次我一定可以
可是我怕什麽呢？
我在乎家人對我的眼光
他們能接受嗎？他們能接受自己的女兒妹妹那麽失敗嗎？
我想只有我瘋了，或者是死了
纔是一個美好的解釋
我到底應該過我自己想要的生活
還是順從他們 過著被安排好的生活

-雲海-

EXAM exam ExAm eXaM~~~~

Fear haunts me...Anxiety overwhelms me~~
I am worried..scared...stressed~~
Suffering..Struggling...Dying....~~?

选择

该如何衡量一个选择的对与错
该如何判断一段感情的是与非
当初的我到底是选择了重来还是继续
重来代表一切归零 重新来过
不再犯同一个错误 不再走本来的方向
继续代表没有改变 继续前进
接受最原始的你 放下心中的不满
我带着遍体鳞伤的身躯 相信你
相信你会一直牵着我 给我幸福
相信你不会再丢下我 重蹈覆辙
已没有多余的力量 去接受
承诺无法实现的借口
美梦无法成真的理由
我用一颗来当作爱你的赌注
失败了就等于失去了全部
成功了 我有了你 失去再多我都无所谓
我都可以满足了