iLuF

家人

2009-10-10T02:27:00.002+08:00

家人是自己的，人生也是属于自己的。
当追求人生意义的同时会对家人造成伤害，
该不该继续？
如果连家人都保护不了，
还谈什么人生? 谈什么梦想？
除非家人对你来说，没有任何意义～

一个人

2009-08-25T22:35:00.002+08:00

我以为我找到寄托
我以为那是我要的幸福
我以为会成为永远

原来是我自己太天真
原来幸福并不属于我
原来终究要自己面对
原来是我不够坚强

原来，还是剩下我一个人

BACK!

2009-08-20T11:23:00.009+08:00

Objective:

Out of 'hot&spicy' request, am back again!! ^^

To give face to the galz, keep asking me to update my blog>>last updated on 19/2/09.

To prevent being boycott by the whole mamak berlemak society.

I make up my mind to give a brief re-opening of my nobody-visited bloggie

I used to talk to myself here. But the fact that my sweet blog has been left for months, indicates that within this period, i dont even have much time to talk to myself..haha~ i am LOST!

Findings:

Ytd was my last day in CLL. but i am just too busy during my last day, working for 15 hours to complete all the SHIT that i've done. too busy to be upset for my departure.

As soon as i reached home at midnight, i can feel the strong feelings coming out of no where! OMG, i'm so sad... i started to miss them..~

not my boss(yiaks), not my work, not yellow hat, not KG tong shui, not even my collegues,

but my true friends~

i enjoyed the every moment in CLL~ i love all of you! *muaks~

<1st sweetie i knew in CLL>>sampat Joycey

SM, sorry for all the mess that i've left..dont hate me pls~

^^mah sweetheart and darling^^

""yipohyipoh angere angere~ yindeeebulangeh""

aneh. thx to you for making my last day complete! It really meant alot to me..Love u always~

Wait...mana itu seewun...pigi mana sudah..~"aiyer...so bad" Also, thx to Chuihwa and may, for accompanying me my last two days..hehe.(sounds like i'm gonna die)..choi!

Conclusion

Dear friends, Please dont forget me!!!

for baked crab session..haha

累

2009-02-19T01:32:00.002+08:00

我累了
活在梦想与现实之间
我崩溃了
坚持相信幸福的存在
我心碎了
执著于爱情的信念
我失败了

如果在幸福的终点
只有绝望
那我宁愿从此选择孤独

因为，我真的累了。。

有些爱不能重来

2008-11-19T17:56:00.004+08:00

有些原谅不会减轻心底的愧疚
有些思念永远不能向人倾诉
有些付出终究还是会付诸东流
有些幸福无法坚持维持到最后
有些甜蜜终于还是会变淡
有些承诺无法逃避时间的洗涤
有些人注定只会是生命的过客

~iLuF~

2008-09-20T01:46:00.001+08:00

Sweet Saturday

2008-03-09T23:39:00.006+08:00

It's time for gathering again! Xinli is back..from Johor and MIFF~^^

Hungrily, we chose Dai-Ti-Hill to have our tea time^^ becoz of the RM 10 voucher that kyi had.(wat an attraction! =.=)

Btw, we did watch b4 intro about this restaurant in TV. LEt's try!

Well, not bad the food. Satisfactory! Food served look like wat is shown in the menu. Taste good too^^

Haha, i only managed to capture one pic of the food we ordered.. Mango blended.. nice~ the snow was soft.. mouth refreshing... but only suitable for those who's not coughing!! certainly not Kyi..haha~

Not to forget, the ice cream with baked sweet potatoes~ special and delicious.. yummy! there's sweet potatoes under the icecream.. which is really SWEET.. hmm.. dun ask me whether sugar is added! NO!! it's simply sweet.

Besides we ordered rolls with prawn and melted cheese (big serving). and also bean curd with cheese or mushroom (smth like tat) lolz.

So i rate this restaurant 8 out of 10. About the price, hmm, still acceptable..as u can save the money for drink to order food. They usually provide skyjuice for free. and no gov tax is charged (only service charge 10%)since it's still new in M'sia but it has branches in China and Taiwan. Advice: try it b4 extra tax is charged..hehe~

Then we went Nandos to meet Kyi's collegues..ALI...haha~ he's a chinese la^^

There're still lots of pic with kyi and xinli.. will upload as soon as i get from them..^^

It's was raining when we left home~ not-so-heavy rain wont stop us from goin home... and wont get us blocked at lecka lecka luckily..haha~

-Weekend ended-

Healthy~

2008-03-04T20:50:00.002+08:00

Wat do u understand about being healthy? And how do u really live healthily?

Well, share with u my "very" healthy weekend^^

We went to Taman Pertanian/Botani (forget wat is the name..Zz) on 24.02.08. with whole gang of ppl, mostly kaiwei's frens.. There were about 30 of us!

Our main purpose is to visit the "4-season" house there.. But, suprisingly, it's under renovation when we got there~~~~ disappointed..

BUT, it's ok.. and we just skipped to our second activities^^ CYCLING.

It was such a long journey to cycle around the whole park! God, it's tiring! I nearly give up..

But i stay in the game instead of becoming a LEAVER.. with the support of my beloved frenz..haha

Proven: I am not tat weak^^

Sux photographer...dunno capture the right angle.

Additional activity: Horse riding!!

Thx to Chiang for making the overall trip so interesting and memorable!!!!!!! solute^^

Let's enjoy the video::

Conclusion: Instead of goin GSC, Pavilion, Redbox, Maison, etc. this is a super over healthy yet money-saving weekend that i'd ever had! What i gain is a healthy weekend and a wound( mayb a scar=.=)...

Most precious thing that i have gained is FRENZSHIP.

Friends who keep supporting when u nearly give up.

Friends who never abandone you when u need to stop.

Friends who dun mind to be the last and "walk" along with u side by side.

Friends who sit with u just to listen to the rhythm of the wind.

~*I LOVE MY FRIENDZ*~

報應

2008-02-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

放棄你是我當初的選擇
還以爲這會是我們最好的出口
受傷卻成為了我們彼此承受的結果
所以
即使再難過我也沒資格向誰訴説
即使再愛你我也會堅持保持沉默
即使再孤獨我也會默默承受寂寞
也許這就是我應有的報應！

SORRY~

失去

2007-11-21T04:27:00.000+08:00

當我擁有的時候，我總是感覺不到
唯獨失去以後，我才發現原來愛真的存在
人說失去后才懂得珍惜
你呢？會比從前更愛我的嗎？
還是發現你根本不需要
我的存在只是多餘？

双子座

2007-10-18T12:29:00.000+08:00

双子座的我最近才发现
潜意识里，我拥有双重性格双重身份
一个活在现实里，一个活在梦境里
好累好累，该如何诚实的面对自己
该怎么做出最理想的选择做回最原本的自己
该怎么让美梦成真？

秋

2007-08-28T06:12:00.000+08:00

秋到了掩蓋了夏的炎熱
無情的秋風跟隨著我孤獨得身影
它撥動我淩亂的髮絲它輕撫過我含淚的臉頰
我獨自經歷所有風雨之後
你。。。還會愛我嗎？
而我呢？還會否像以往那般
對你的愛堅貞不渝。。。。。。。。

雲海

220807 Australia Firework

2007-08-28T06:00:00.000+08:00

Shared with you our experience in PutraJaya... Nice to go with frenz..~~

This time we had nice view at this UFO(PICC) ...hehe~~

One Night in One U!

2007-08-28T05:36:00.001+08:00

We were bored that day 240807. So, we planned something for our Friday night!! We went to 1-U to watch Rogue Assassin.. starring Jet Li. Before that movie, we randomly decided to take our dinner in this japanese restautant -- AJISEN RAMEN.

-Creative master piece by Jian-

Overall, i personally think this restaurant is nice! I love its food! It just suits my taste and appetite.. Well, i guess i will rate 4 out of 5. Hurray!

Well, i would recommend beef teri set.. really nice! i tried chicken katsu set.. erm..not bad..lolx

Beef Teri Set

Tom Yum Ramen

After watching Rogue Assasin, whole team of us not familiar with 1-U lost our way.. Guess what? we cant find our cars..haha~~ by the way, we were still happy at 1st, taking photos.. enjoy life..lolx

Share with u.. cutest photo of the day..haha~

Another wonderful weekend!!~~

2007-08-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

180807 - 9 of us, 6 boys 3 gals, went for firework trip at putrajaya!!

We managed to capture perfect view away from crowd at cyber height.. thx to ar du!!

Ops where am i? of coz behind the camera lo...hehe~

Well, my personal opinion is tat the buildings are even more beautiful than the firework.. haha~~ still nice the firework.. but not special enough to win the competition bah.. perhaps, i expect too much.. lolx..

I'm with

super-many-complains

hong..swt

After that we headed to Old Town @ cyberjaya to meet loong.. end up we yamchar at Padi House just beside Old Town.

Wonderful yamchar happy hour with frenz

Next day, we went for movie in Times Square. Evan Almighty- nice and funny movie! lolx

Before the movie, we had luxurious yamchar session @ Starbuck..omg then we went entertainment centre.. challenge each other's basketball skill.. simple game but tiring =X

Our next target: Ratatouille.. =)

Sunway piramid~

2007-08-14T04:03:00.000+08:00

110807

We planned to go out shopping.. and end up playing game at entertainment centre @ Sunway piramid...

We had lots of fun there.. =)

Here, chiang, hong, jian and loong played gun shooting~

undoubtedly, they are sux.. hoho~

We saw a 150 pounds leng lui danced..omg~ haha

Then we challenged daytona..suddenly i missed lisan~ she is pro!

Du reached sunway piramid entrance later then. So we rushed out to meet him and went for dinner.. end of the day...

思念

2007-08-10T12:38:00.000+08:00

我想你想到無法自拔想到夜夜失眠
想你在寒冷夜裏，將我緊緊擁抱
想你在炎熱天氣，陪我去吹吹風
想你在我跌到時，為我緊張心疼
想你在寂寞時空，守候在我身旁
人說思念是一種浪漫的情調
怎麽我感覺到那麽強烈的痛楚
好想停止對你的思念
卻害怕有朝一日真的把你忘了
有誰可以保證在多年以後你會回到我身邊
有誰可以承諾在痛苦以後幸福始終會降臨
有誰能有信心在掙扎以後我們的愛會始終如一永不改變

020807

2007-08-03T01:52:00.000+08:00

Quite a happy day for me today.. physically~
Evening chiang and me went to Du's house at Plaza Prima to swim.. Then we joined kheryi to take our dinner at KFC.. (no creativity at all). haha~
Then as soon as we got back to tbr.. kheryi called again to yamchar at Feeling.
Once again we joined her.. we had quite a enjoyable gathering there.~~ kheryi got mad and kept squeezing chili sauce to other ppl.. i guess she was too stressful at work that day..haha~~
After David left, i can feel the care from some true frens. i know actually who really care for me and who really treat me as a fren. However i nvr tell them how i feel.. and how i am touched for what they have done for me.. deep inside my heart.. i do appreciate them and i promise myself to cherich this relationship with them forever.
These few days, maggie is sad and lisan is down. They shared with me but i can hardly help. the only thing i can do is to be a listener. Sincerely, i hope they will be fine! and be optimistic.
I am sad too.. internally. But i choose to hide inside of me, not to tell anyone else. I am learning to be independent to be strong. It's better to be strong when my frens are down. At least they can still rely on me during this miserable period for them. They are my best frens and i love them. my heart really ache to see them crying.
Here, i pray for all of my frens' happiness always!

290707 Tai Lou's Bufday!

2007-07-30T03:08:00.000+08:00

Finally, it's Jian's turn!! Can make own wishes with own candles! lolx

Special Apple cake for our tailou..hehe~

Jian's funny face pretended to be surprised..=X

Jian and his favourite! Ops...it's durian not feitoi..haha

Cake cutting ceremony = feitoi's happiest moment

Gayest moment of the day!! Stupid gay hong =.=''

Happy Birthday Jian! Good luck in ur coming exam!

Our trip to LANGKAWI..the island of legend~

2007-07-24T20:58:00.001+08:00

We reached Langkawi by ferry about 11am. Then, we rented a proton iswara for only RM 40.

Our journey has just started!!

1st destination: Perdana gallery

Here, Datuk Sri Tunku Mahatir, our ex prime minister keeps all his collection.

Sorvenirs from foreign countries, cars, his cerificates, etc.

After this, we stopped at Air Hangat. Wow, the water inside the well was really HOT!

We washed our leg with the hot water.. relaxing!

Black sand beach
As i know, the black sand has become fewer and fewer year after year. So, please visit before it is too late..=)

We bought some sorvenirs here for our friends in KL.

We were blocked !! Not by police but COW
=.=

Finally we reached Oriental Village Langkawi!

We bumped into a special road sign.. "Jalan Dang Wangi" 50100 Kuala Lumpur. hehe feels like goin back KL liao.. The decoration is beautiful. with a small lake like small titiwangsa..lolx

We ride cable car to the top. on the way, dear discovered a beautiful waterfall!

Amazing~

We stopped to take photo before reaching the top. It is 52.5 meter above sea level!

wow, the scenery is superb on the top! We can see the beauty of Langkawi here.

There is a curve bridge .

It is scary to look down. If lisan was here, sure pengsan! haha

The well known Langkawi Underwaterworld

The sea lions are so intelligent! whilst the bird... don't think they are cute.. they attack!!!

Two types of penguin available here: african penguins and rockhoppers (the type of penguin in Surf's up)

Sea dragons

unique fish and sea horse

Then, we ended our adventure and shop for CHOCOLATES>.yummy!

dear came my hometown!!

2007-07-24T02:29:00.001+08:00

I brought dear to Bukit Kubu (there is one video clip of osama in youtube saying he is hiding here in Hokkien dialect..funny~) perlis kia so notti..

We walked through a small path to Bukit Kubu.. the natural environment is so relaxing~ suddenly i realise how i love perlis.. together with my loved one in this peaceful paradise!..

Hiking has just begun!

We rest... exhausted.. two youths who are seriously lack of exercise.. =x

We went to seaside "chui chui feng".. eat pisang goreng~

This world can be beautiful with simple life.. But why all of us strive hard for better life full of complication. What is better? Do we really need to sacrifice our nature to get a better life?

i wonder...

秘密

2007-06-18T07:10:00.000+08:00

這些年以來我一直認爲你和我是無話不說的
這些年以來我始終相信我會是你最信任的人
這些年以來深信我們之間沒有隱藏任何秘密
這些年以來我對你所作的一切沒有一絲懷疑

直到這一天我偶然發現你和她在聊天
直到這一天你表現得如此的神神密密
直到這一天你再次告訴我你需要空間
直到這一天我收回了這些年以來對你的信任

L3sS

2007-06-15T13:04:00.000+08:00

-- Speechless -- When u said u are leaving

-- Hopeless -- When u asked would u wait

-- Helpless -- Cant control my tear from flowing down

-- Lifeless -- After u leave

懂你的人

2007-06-11T07:54:00.000+08:00

我要做一個懂你的人懂你不代表縱容你
而是不需要太多言語我就可以體諒你
不需要任何解釋我也能夠相信你
不需要什麽理由我會一直支持你
你做錯選擇之前盡我所能提醒你
你走錯方向之前及時阻攔你繼續
你遇到挫折之際陪著你守候著你

聰明的人，喜歡猜心
雖然每次都猜對了，卻失去了別人的心

傻氣的人，喜歡給心
雖然每次都被笑了，卻得到了別人的心

My Pressie~~ muaks

2007-06-08T23:41:00.001+08:00

Yummy chocolate cake from beloved dear dear~

anklet from xinli

earrings from lisan

Kenzo perfume from maggie

doggie bank & blueberry cheese cake from explo& jingle

Sing K as present from all who went

-Daniel, Kheryi, Jian , Xinli, Feitoi, Level 6, Hong, chiang, loong-

I guess this is the last present from mag for the next 3 or 4 years..if i were given a choice, i would rather keep u by my side..

But then, wish ur best of luck in ur journey to UK..

Muaks..forever here for ya~

surprise pressie from explo and jingle..~~

yummy..cutie~

Last but not least thx to all who send me bufday wishes and everything...appreciate alot..~~

Luv ya all~~

Birthday wif frenzz~~

2007-06-08T23:27:00.001+08:00

Green box session!!

All boy-friends

One ah gua

Two pretty piggie

mag's birthday wishes

charmining princ3ss

perfect birthday!

~~Thx all~~

Bufday War

2007-06-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

2nd June~~ It's my bufday~~ declare WAR!!

Betrayed~~

2007-05-25T12:22:00.000+08:00

The other day i chat wif ar du via vid's msn..^^

Continued...

In the end, being betrayed....=(

* just for fun*

More about Redang 2007

2007-05-25T02:26:00.000+08:00

Happily, we went to PWTC hentian there to ride bus heading for kuala terengganu... Nearly, we missed our bus...uhhh...luckily we chased the bus and the plan continued...haha~~

We reached Redang on 8th May early in the morning..about 5.30am.. sleepy hungry**

Stupid hong tried to fool ppl by setting stupid ring tone in other ppl hp.. BUt then, the twinkle twinkle (indian version) we simply like it and keep playing it.. annoy him back..wahhaha~

We waited about more than 2 hours only the bus come to fetch us from the "pelangi resort"..yiaks

In the bus, we met wif one group of leng zhai leng luiz..who liked "lang hua yi duo duo" very much~~ swt AND a sweet couple..yii

As soon as we arrived Redang island, we got wet!! coz need to walk from sea to the beach... pity those ppl like lisan... hahazzz leg "not long"...lolz

During the 3D2N there we had a lot of snorkelling activities... marine park there is the best...can feed fish until got bitten... *sob*... swim in front of a super scary big fish... swim across a whole group of fish look like ikan bilis.... it's a wonderful experience...!! feels like becoming a mermaid..wahahaz

Surely, we must not miss to visit the famous momo tea..

Normal: abnormal

Normal: Charming

Cute: stupiak

Sand-burying team
Project manager: Sim jian
Team member : Chiang, Vid, Fei Yi Qing, Harn
Victim : Pet pet hong, Fei Toi

Hong:
Cheated by 2 ice creams

FeiToi:

Sank King

Group Photos

Ops I miss Redang~~

Support Adrian Mr Campus

2007-05-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

Well, we went to sg wang just to support Adrian for his Mr Campus competition on 20th may 2007.. and he managed to preceed to Final wif his impressive magic performance~~ Congrats!~~

I took some pic but so sad..all blur

While waiting for the results...we went to take our lunch @ B-Bee Tea House.. the food there..hmm i rate 3 out of 5..

My grapefruit nata de coco and dear's milk tea...milk tea better

>> menu of the tea house..special~~

After the competition we went yamchar at a very "near' place... Sri petaling =.=''

--On the way...

Fei toi so cute~~

Haha

Finally, reach there...

the atmosphere inside is quite nice..relaxing.. romantic.. authentic?

Our drinks.. i ordered apple tea..^^

Psycho wif food..>>

Dessert-- Warm heart chocolate ice cream...Dickson's recommended.. "Must Eat!!"

hmm....look nice.. but quite disappointing..~~ =.=

We went Tbun after that....wow... i was so exhausted actually... tak boleh tahan..zzz

Sad~

2007-05-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

So sad~~ i fail 3 subjects in my internal exam
So sad~~ i am collapsing but no one notices
So sad~~ my dear may go back to kch if he cant get a suitable job
So sad~~ Xinli is goin back Johor to work
So sad~~ Lisan is in kch having her practical training
So sad~~ Maggie is goin Uk this Sept for 4 years
So sad~~ papa and mummy argues non stoppingly
So sad~~ Mummy is suffering
So sad~~ 2007 is not a good year for me
So sad~~ Everything is goine..left me alone.. in my miserable life~~

Back in hometown

2007-05-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

As soon as i came back from Redang, i rushed back to my hometown.. well it's mother's day!!~~

Happy mother's day, mummy!! i Love you~~

^This is a pic of my beloved mummy, taken by iLuF secretly..haha~~

Haha~ this is my new passport.. lolz..actually i want to accompany mama to S'pore de.. But unluckily, i need to sit for my exam.. sad sad~~ Sorry mummy, next time k? hehe

Try my best to accompany u to Korea end of this year.. lolz

Later then, after 5 or 6 days, mummy followed me to KL..and this morning i sent her to Pudu, heading to Johor. Koko is at Johor ma, sure can take good care of her de..hehe~

Mummy and iLuF went to Times Square and Sg Wang yesterday.. Shopping spree..~~ yeahWe took out lunch at Gasoline. have a nice time wif mummy~~ Hope mummy is always happy..

8-May-2007 to 10-May-2007

2007-05-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

Guess wat it's our 3D2N redang trip..yeah..it'd been memorable and exciting!~~
Gotta go there again soon.

This is one of the sweet photos we took in redang..lolx..gotta get more pic from xinli as soon as she comes back from Pontian..
Really have lots of fun there.. Crystal-clear water..relaxing environment..Fresh air..
~~ i Love it~~
~~ i Miss it~~

不是真的爱我

2007-05-05T07:10:00.001+08:00

孙燕姿的旧歌。重新在听一遍。却有新的感觉。
歌词里头的感动，是最近的流行歌曲找不到的。

你和我就算了吗　
别用沉默代替回答
陌生的让我害怕　
心像被针扎了一下
总是不提那句话
我想你是故意装傻　
不是不懂的表达　
还在等什么说清楚吧
我想你不是真的爱我　
习惯被忽略不算自由
相爱的人总是不懂　
为什么真心伤的特别重
我想你不是真的爱我　
当体贴渐渐受到冷落
其实爱也有很多选择　
我也可以给你自由
终于明白那句话　
爱能让人一夜长大
不成熟的感情啊　
让我变的小心害怕
我和你就算了吧　
不想再为爱挣扎
爱情若没有火花　
至少了解后懂的放下

What is 520?

2007-05-01T05:10:00.000+08:00

Many ask me about my IGN--iLuF520...
--wat is 520? ur birthdate?
--anniversary?
--lucky number?
--Car plat number?
--etc..
None of the above is correct...the truth u can search by using the google search machine above my blog... and type in Chinese NUmberic Codes

now u noe the answer? yeah...that's right! :-) ..coincidentally..520,i.e May 20th, was also the date my beloved great grandma passed away..perhaps, this is a way she showed her love to us!! I miss her so much!!~~

I think code is a ideal method to express our feelings.. i will nvr forget the one who wrote a letter for me with codes...thanks for everything!

Decision Making

2007-04-30T07:48:00.000+08:00

There is a part time job available(1 day) at GEnting posted by my jx2 fren, Zyn in frenster the other day.. As soon as read about it, i am interested.. the reasons are:- 1. the wage is RM 250 per day working from 8pm to 1 am accomodation provided. 2. after the job, i may have more opportunities to involve in freelancer jobs. 3. i can earn extra income before i engage in a full time working life.
therfore, i immediately asked my beloved housemate, Xinli to join me..and she agreed :-) Then i called the agent.

Agent: would u mind come for an interview on this monday?
iLuF : Sure!
Agent: Please come with full make-up and black top, ok?
iLuF : emm.....okay!~

However, i am suddenly in hesitation when xinli rushed back to her hometown due to some reasons. I need to reconsider whether or not to go alone for this job. Go alone to Genting for the job and overnight there? i got no any experience in a job like this... should i go? does the benefits that i would gain exceeds the risk that i am goin to undertake..? Decision making in real life is really hard..What should i do?

生活

2007-04-29T08:22:00.000+08:00

考試終于結束了。該開心嗎？該慶祝嗎？
怎麽此時此刻我還是如此猶豫。
怎麽壓力和擔憂還是緊緊抓著我不肯放開
我好擔心甚至睡覺也會夢見
擔心我會不及格夢見我無法和其他同學一起畢業
說真的我相信我可以就算這一次失敗了下一次我一定可以
可是我怕什麽呢？
我在乎家人對我的眼光
他們能接受嗎？他們能接受自己的女兒妹妹那麽失敗嗎？
我想只有我瘋了，或者是死了
纔是一個美好的解釋
我到底應該過我自己想要的生活
還是順從他們過著被安排好的生活

-雲海-

EXAM exam ExAm eXaM~~~~

2007-04-27T09:41:00.000+08:00

Fear haunts me...Anxiety overwhelms me~~
I am worried..scared...stressed~~
Suffering..Struggling...Dying....~~?

选择

2007-04-17T05:00:00.000+08:00

该如何衡量一个选择的对与错
该如何判断一段感情的是与非
当初的我到底是选择了重来还是继续
重来代表一切归零重新来过
不再犯同一个错误不再走本来的方向
继续代表没有改变继续前进
接受最原始的你放下心中的不满
我带着遍体鳞伤的身躯相信你
相信你会一直牵着我给我幸福
相信你不会再丢下我重蹈覆辙
已没有多余的力量去接受
承诺无法实现的借口
美梦无法成真的理由
我用一颗来当作爱你的赌注
失败了就等于失去了全部
成功了我有了你失去再多我都无所谓
我都可以满足了

付出与幸福

2007-02-05T03:38:00.000+08:00

到底幸福是什么？
有个人为你付出，是一种幸福吗？
还是默默为你所爱付出才是幸福?
难道幸福和爱就不能共同进退吗?
如果我说,
我离开了自己所爱,去追寻幸福.
是潇洒吗? 还是不可理喻.
我心里的挣扎,就像沸腾的水,无法自拔
我用尽力量压抑自己的感觉,却掩饰不了我对你的眷恋
今夜风很凉,我的心淌着血,没有人懂得.
只有风, 风在讽刺我的傻.
原来,我对你的爱与付出,是没有任何要求的.
纵然你浑然不知,纵然你视而不见
我只想留在你身边, 为你默默的守候
我只希望你每分每秒都幸福美满
我鲁莽的向外奔跑寻觅幸福
寻觅的最终我还是受伤了.
然后发现,我的幸福原来就建立于你身上!

结束了

2007-01-08T04:08:00.000+08:00

这一次，真的结束了。
三年的付出，真的没有了
三年的依赖，真的过去了
三年的期待，最终放弃了

给了多少的机会，从来不被珍惜
经历了多少等待，换来无数失望
用了多少的勇气，我选择了放弃

有谁可以预测，我们能不能重来
可是此刻的我，我的心，受伤得太彻底了
已没有空隙在承受任何挫折与冒险
你的心，也还没有安定下来

我想，现在选择放手
对我们来说，也许是最好的出路
没有我的束缚，你的生活会更圆满，精彩！

At last~

2006-12-11T12:03:00.000+08:00

At last...i finish my exam..after a pretty short but torturing period.
During this period, i was stressed, i cried, i tried, i struggled.
Now, it is over. But i am bored, lonely, i found life is meaningless!
Everyday, loneliness overwhelms me..the loneliness inside my heart that i cant describe.
i can hardly find anyone to tell or perhaps anyone to listen to my crap.
Becoz, no one will understand nor believe.
Who are my friends and who arent my friends?
Something that used to be simple become so complicated.
I realised there are so many things that cant be seen with normal sight.
There are some kind of disappointment in my heart.
Disappointment that arises from stupid expectation and assumptions.
Disappointment that is breaking my heart, that i cant get rid of.
I may b smiling to u, but crying inside.
U wont realise.Becoz u won't understand at all.
I am just a simple gal looking for her Prince~
The one who will show me this world is full of love, hope, and care!
Who is gotta give me courage and strength
Who is gotta hold my hand until forever ends

This is my son!! :)

2006-11-23T05:45:00.000+08:00

This is iLuF @ gasoline

cute? not cute? pls vote!

miss this baby so much wanna kiss him:)muaks

i am back!! :)

2006-11-23T05:35:00.000+08:00

it'd been a long long time since i last updated my blog..lolz

not my fault it's laziness fail me..jkjk

well in this period, a lot of things happen in my life..frustrations, happiness, sadness, etc.

wat should i start? haihz..let us just forget about it:-)

as for now, i am addicted to a game called jx2..omg..i am like crazy everyday gaming...some1 pls stop me!! Pls stop me!!

i am gotta stop for a while preparing for coming exam...i need to control myself!!! This is serious..lack of time now..oh no..i am so worried!

ok bye..i go to study 1st :P

thx for reading my blog! Luv ya all!!

-iLuF-

yeah~ it's my happy day!!~~

2006-07-17T04:49:00.000+08:00

自己

2006-07-17T04:39:00.000+08:00

好久沒有寫blog 了。
是件好事嗎﹖應該是吧﹗﹖
到底是因為這段日子裡﹐沒有風浪﹖
還是經歷風雨之後﹐我學會了快樂。
原來﹐快樂可以很簡單。
快樂不需要任何理由﹐只要放下執著。
做自己該做的﹐並不代表反叛。
追求自己所要的﹐並不代表任性。
堅持自己的意念﹐並不代表自我。
只想在屬於自己的生命裡﹐ 尋覓生活的意義。
不再對不起自己﹑不再虧欠身邊的每一個。
盡力而為作回本來的自己!

-雲海-

感人故事~

2006-07-05T05:45:00.000+08:00

http://www.keyweb.com.tw/11/01/

P/S: 悄悄告訴你﹐我邊讀這故事﹐邊哭得霹靂扒拉的。*羞* :-)

愛情vs投資

2006-07-04T07:37:00.000+08:00

愛情到底算不算是一種投資﹖
是啊﹗投資越大﹐風險就越高。
付出越多﹐受傷就更重。

可是為什麼﹖
投資越大﹐回收就越多。
而愛情卻是付出的越多﹐就很難得到珍惜。
唯有當付出是0% 時﹐才會被追求﹐受珍惜。

如果是這樣﹐我寧願重來﹐寧願不曾付出﹐
那麼﹐我會比現在更加幸福美滿。

-雲海-

理想

2006-07-03T01:14:00.000+08:00

小時候﹐總是有好多理想。
那些理想都很崇高﹑美麗。
漸漸的﹐我開始慢慢長大。
開始了解現實與夢想的差別。
我不再談理想,
是沒了幹勁去追求理想麼﹖
只是不想自欺欺人﹑說說而已。

-雲海-

2006-07-01T16:37:00.000+08:00

D - You have trouble trusting people.
A - Damn, you are good in bed.
V - You are not judgemental.
I - Love is something you deeply believe in.
D - You have trouble trusting people.

L - Youhave a nice ass ;-)
O - You love foreplay.
V - You are not judgemental.
E - You're loyal to thoseyou love.

C - your wild and crazy
H - You have very good personality and looks.
L - Youhave a nice ass ;-)
O - You love foreplay.
E - You're loyal to those you love.

生疏。空虚

2006-07-01T00:12:00.001+08:00

好久好久没有接触华语了。感觉好生疏，好难表达自己。怎么了？
好久好久没有练习弹琴了。感觉好生疏，好难弹首好曲。怎么办？
好久好久没找朋友谈心了。感觉好生疏，好难诉说心声。到底怎么了？
好久没有家的温馨感觉了。感觉好空虚，失去了避风港。应该怎么办？
好久好久没有离开你身边。感觉好空虚，失去了安全感。该怎么填补？

对于华语，我愿重温与回味从前，寻觅那种感觉，重新来过
对于音乐，我愿寄托于劲乐团中，找回那种快感，暂时而已
对于朋友，我愿放下自己的坚持，聆听别人看法，试着接受
对于家人，我不要求他们的体谅，尽量配合他们，学着长大
对于‘他’我愿他的爱不会改变，互相关怀守候，直到永远

心~死了

2006-06-26T01:23:00.000+08:00

怎麼了﹖今天心徹底的死了
因為一句傷人的話語
因為太愛了太在乎了
因為突然發現自己付出的愛
對他們來說什麼都不是
原來愛是用成就來衡量

這一次。心真的被狠狠的刺傷了
然後選擇窒息
選擇永遠的死去
今天起終結了所謂的反叛
結束了所有的想法
不再說愛。不再要求愛

當明天的太陽再度昇起
一切都沒有改變
可是
郭亦涵~死了

平凡的浪漫

2006-06-22T18:06:00.000+08:00

平時﹐總愛羨慕別人愛情的浪漫
總愛讚嘆別人愛得轟轟烈烈

看到的﹐是他人愛情的甜美
他人如何愛得如此相知相惜

漸漸的﹐我越來越看不見自己
我們的愛情也變得越來越渺小
怎麼生活中總是缺乏浪漫
我開始埋怨自己為何愛得如此平淡
我開始懷疑我們愛情的純真與真摯

於是﹐我試著遠離自己的目光
投向他人的立場來看自己
我學著放下對浪漫的那份執著
去尋覓生活中被遺漏的些許浪漫

後來﹐才偶然發現
我正處於幸福之中卻渾然不知
我生活裡點綴著無數的浪漫卻不曾察覺

原來﹐我們沒有車代步
才可以每天攜手漫步去共餐
才可以在雨中漫步之時讓你偷吻我的臉頰
這﹐是一種浪漫

原來﹐我們沒有遠距離的思念
卻可以天天相見﹐互相守護
在夜深人靜之時可以傾訴心聲
在悲傷之時你會發現將我緊緊擁抱
在睡夢之中你輕輕為我蓋被擔心我著涼
這﹐是一種浪漫

原來﹐你很少會在網路上留封testi 給我
我也很少會收到你寄給我的短信息
我卻可以無時無刻守在你身邊
聽。你愛的呼喚﹐看。你疼惜的神情
感受。我們愛情的溫度
這﹐是一種浪漫

原來﹐愛情不需所謂的那般轟烈
浪漫也毋需禮物﹑鮮花
而是在生活得點點滴滴之中無形產生
這﹐就是平凡的浪漫

最原始的浪漫﹗

最終的抉擇

2006-06-19T02:57:00.000+08:00

最近的我感情世界總不是那麼順利。雖然他父母已知道了真相﹑雖然我們的關係已不再是秘密﹐可是我開心嗎﹖我問我自己。也許吧。。現在我的存在受肯定了﹐總算可以鬆一口氣﹐總算前方的路也較為清晰了。

但﹐隨之而來的問題也越來越多。我們的關係變得越來越複雜。我們的愛情不再是純粹兩個人那麼簡單。需要考慮的問題也越來越多﹑承受的壓力也越來越重了。

難道父母的忠言真的可以置之不理嗎﹖旁人的眼光真的可以毫無所謂嗎﹖天啊﹗我開始亂了。開始難以作出抉擇。

聽了他爸爸的那番話﹐我怕了。就在那一瞬間﹐我曾想過退縮﹑逃避。因為我怕了。我怕我不能完成他們的心願﹐我怕我不能達到他們的要求﹐我怕我跟他真的沒有未來﹐我更怕我毀了他一生﹗

可是我並沒有放棄。畢竟我對他的那份愛不是假的。不是說放就放的。對他的那份愛意﹐把我從迷失中拉回來了。回到了他身邊﹐繼續守護著﹑支持著。

他總是安慰我叫我別害怕。而我﹐總是故作堅強的說﹕“怕什麼﹖沒什麼好怕的。”我不可以讓他感覺我的壓力。畢竟他所承受的壓力太大了。我的壓力是無形的。而他的是直接。我不想造成他多餘的負擔。雖然他並沒有說﹐可是我能理解他為了跟我在一起﹐而承受來自父母的壓力實在太重了。現在還要擔心我會難受。

我怎麼可以那麼自私﹖怎麼可以再增加他的懮慮﹖他對我的付出我都看見了。至少在這一刻﹐我深信他是愛我的。所以﹐我決定了。在他放棄我之前﹐我絕不會輕言放棄。我決定了。守在他身邊﹐不長﹐就這一輩子。

堅強的背後

2006-06-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

說真的﹐我並沒有像外表般堅強﹑並不如表面那般樂觀。到頭來﹐我還不是一個平凡的女人而已。一樣那般渴望被愛﹑被疼惜。一樣盼望與心中所愛終成眷屬。有那個女人不享受在愛自己的人面前撒嬌﹑任性。不是因為幼稚﹐抑或者是霸道。而是﹐唯有在他面前﹐可以享有公主般的侍候﹑無所不能。一個幸福的女人﹐不必擁有天使般的臉龐﹑迷人的身材﹐而是在尋覓的最終遇上了命中註定的那位王子。一起攜手編造一個夢幻的童話世界。一個真正幸福的女人是流著平凡女人的血﹐卻得到公主般的包庇﹑疼愛。就只是在他面前,自己頓時變成了公主﹗我呢﹖我算不算是一個很可悲的女人﹖為什麼你總是要我學著堅強﹖為什麼你從不允許我任性﹖為什麼你每回的不守承諾﹐都要我去體諒﹑每回對我的冷落﹐都要我去原諒﹖我只是一個平凡的女人﹐為什麼你要把我想得如此複雜﹖我只是需要你在我難過的時候﹐給我個擁抱﹑在我流淚的時候為我擦干眼淚﹑在我空虛的時候陪伴著我。我的要求對你來說真的那麼高嗎﹖真的那麼難以完成嗎﹖ 如果堅強的代價﹐只是心傷﹑受冷落.。那麼﹐我寧願自己可以不理智的任性﹐爭取你最原始的那份愛。

Another blog?? :)

2006-06-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

huh? i got another blog...haih..sometimes i just wonder y i have somekind of blogsite like this...keep blogging n blogging..but then late in the night, i think...why am i doing so? y am i expressing my feeling in such a virtual way?

Perhaps i am lonely. Perhaps, i can hardly find some1 to tell...or to listen to me. I wonder y... i am not that kind of person who are too quiet..talk less.. in fact, i do joking around wif frens, laughing, yamchar.. However, how many of them is trusted one? how many of them whom i will share my feeling wif? how many of them would comfort me during my down time? the answer is few...too few..sad!

Dunno since when that i started to express myself thru net(blogging). i dunno who will read this...some1 that i knew..some1 that we dun even noe each other.Funny huh? :)

Welcome to my space...my eternaland..which completely reflexes the real side of me..the wholly true n sincere iLuF..